when my mom was diagnosed I really thought we could handle it but everything was so fast. They took her in for radiation and she got much worse and it was just a total snowball from there. I was so helpless. I was struggling just to keep up. We took her home one day and she got up in the middle of the night and said, I am scared. God that CHILLED me. I called the ambulance and she never came home. I can't even go to the grave because I feel like I failed her.