I won't laugh at you and I won't mock you, sadveiledbride, my friend Your problems and feelings are ALL very real and very valid. I'm here to validate your feelings and if there's ANYTHING I can do to help you PLEASE don't hesitate to contact me through PM or chat. You are important and you matter, no matter what other people may say or think. I'm so sorry that you have to go through ALL of this You're the last person in the world who deserves such a burden, my friend I know you and I know that you will get through this like you've always done. Please don't you EVER give up hope, friend. Hang in there. It gets easier. I'm sure of that. I'm so sorry that you're going through ALL of this suffering, sadveiledbride, my AWESOME, caring, dear and sweet friend! .sadhug: