Not doing so good today. Physically sick on top of being filled with anxiety. Today was supposed to be my second day at a new job. But with me being sick I didn't want risk giving it to someone else. Plus I work around food. Not a good combo. Now I am getting the 3rd degree from my parents for calling off. Now mind you I am almost 39 years old. I am not a child. Would they rather I make someone else sick? My mom said she is disappointed in me. How am I supposed to feel about that? I already feel bad enough. All this just makes me feel worse. I think I will turn my phone off and just ignore things for a bit. I don't live with my parents. My step dad was gonna give me a ride to work today. Otherwise they wouldn't have known I called off. I think I will go lay back down now. This stuff is too stressful.