Deso,

You DO know that none of her alcoholism is your responsibility.....right?
I mean we can all attempt to help those around us, but you can't force anyone to grab the life vest while drowning in the water.
Sometimes, you gotta just take care of yourself, and that's all that's possible.
I'm so sorry you have to live through this, especially with all the progress you've made on your own.
I don't know what the answer is, I just know that this **** is NOT your fault.
Just sayin....