That's a lot to go through, Emily, and I'm so sorry that you're feeling so bad I understand it's hard. First I want you to know that I'm here for you and I'm sure many others are as well. Please feel free to PM me anytime if you need support. I believe you can work through these issues by taking it one step at the time. In fact it seems to me like you're already taking those steps. You're trying to apply for a new job and trying to make some new friends. Not to mention it seems like your mind already knows what to do in regards to your house and your body. The hardest part is the beginning. However once you begin I'm sure it will get easier and easier. Try to keep a journal and to do something to improve yourself each day. It can even be something very simple, such as speaking to some new people or something like that. Keep working on what you feel like needs adjusting in your life. Keep applying for new jobs if you can. Look for some new houses that may be not too expensive for you and decide if it's worth it. Try to meet new people. Perhaps you can even start to see a nutritionist. I'm sure you already know what you need to do. Just try to begin from one of these things. Then try to do something else. Hopefully that will make it easier. I'm so sorry you're not feeling supported right now. We're here for you. You can PM me anytime. I'm sure others will be available as well. Most importantly, though, please love yourself. You are important and you matter. You deserve a good life and you deserve good things coming your way. That's the most important thing that you can. If you still feel like ALL of this may not be enough for you, perhaps you may want to talk to a therapist about ALL of this, although I remember you saying that you don't really like the idea if I recall correctly. Don't worry, I won't argue your decision. Just be kind to yourself, ok? You're in my thoughts and prayers. Sending many safe, warm hugs to you, Emily Fox Seaton, and to ALL the people you love and who love you!