I’ll jump right right in.

I’ve been depressed for years now, and it’s beginning to really overwhelm me. I used to be able to manage it, so others couldn’t tell. I kept my grades up, maintained involvement in the community, and was social. More recently I’ve started to crumble. I dropped out of college, lost connections with all of my friends and family, and lost sight of my purpose entirely.

I started this thread to seek any advice on this particular aspect of my situation, my relationship with my girlfriend. We’ve been dating for almost two years now, and she’s great. She’s kind to me, understanding, and supportive. Despite all that and the many other wonderful things about her, I find myself wanting to end the relationship. I feel as if I can’t properly provide her with the love and affection she deserves while also expending the energy to heal myself that I deserve. I am having a hard time distinguishing if it is my depressed state wanting to push her away, or if I really would benefit from ending the relationship and focusing on rebuilding my life.

If you’ve read this far, thank you. I appreciate it greatly. I need all the help I can get.