It's because a lady that had once worked there returned to ask for her job back...was the reason for my paranoia. Before she had left she worked there for 6 years. Their all good friends. I just feel they want me to go so their friend could return. Rational persecutory feelings....so I believe. Since that woman walked in the door they'd changed.

One of the exact comments the oldest lady gave me was (a response) "You're lucky to even be here, the old manager wouldn't have hired you". This was her response to me asking would it be difficult to schedule around my summer semester schedule. I thought that was messed up....but I didn't say nothing.

I do believe I am fired too. Another rational persecutory assumption, especially since I called out and she said "okay"...that's it. I'm sure they'll terminate me on the clock...mack a fool of me, or me making a fool of myself. Whatever.

Question though: Wouldn't you feel defensive all the time if everybody was critical of you too? Consciously I have to convince myself I'm doing the right thing even after endless %#@&#! amounts of *****ing coming from those who are suppose to love and support me. So yes! I do get defensive....I do feel like people are against me at times. Clicks and kins here in WV ain't unheard of neither.

Again, instinctly I'm defending myself when all I wanted was for some understanding...some one to tell me what the %#@&#! to do.