Some time spent playing games would probably do you good. Maybe it would bring on a laugh. You already invested the effort to buy them. The worst thing that could happen would be that your husband doesn't like it as you stated. Is that really so awful? It would only last for a period of time and then he would return to normal. The consequence of him not enjoying himself is low risk. You would need to be able to snap out of the state you're in though to play. Part of the fun is playing with someone capeable of having a good time. You can do it! If you want to give it a try, don't over think it and just allow yourself to try to be free for a few moments. You could even be honest with your husband and tell him you're trying to have some fun to help pull yourself out of the depression you're in and that you have a fear he won't like the games. That might help him try his best to keep your feelings in mind as you go.