oh man @Deilla , what a messed up situation, but certainly you seem to be staying afloat in a superb manner and not letting loneliness and isolation get the best of you. Just that much is commendable and you have my utmost respect for it, not to mention the way you seem to handle your near disability and physical pain, which also seems very well implemented. Keep up the good work and never let the setbacks this life throws at you, deter you from living your life in an at least semi happy, peaceful way.

I join the others when I say it seems odd and sad that your sisters won't visit cause you can't walk. How terrible. What ever happened to compassion, tolerance of other people's situations and understanding of your own family member's physical condition? So sad. I wish they will realize how wrong it is that they don't wanna visit and somehow start going to see you randomly at your place. You are a brave person for living alone with a near disability and that's also a very worthy of respect thing you have managed doing!

I get lonely too you know? cause I'm housebound due to my schizophrenia and PTSD. I've lost all those ppl who claimed to be my friends over the years, shedding them like a bald man's hair, little by little, slowly but surely. If I don't make an effort in making new online friends, I will stay only talking to my parents and married siblings who live away but at least close enough to visit and such. Plus, my mom babysits my niece and I get to see them all almost every day, which is really nice. But yeah, the night comes, insomnia hits me and I'm back down here at the kitchen table with my laptop, and I suddenly feel very alone sometimes.

You can PM me anytime you want, for a safe but fun alternative to loneliness. I'm a big dork at heart and I always make or try to make people laugh when I get closer to them. You seem like an interesting, strong, resilient person and I'm sure there's much I could learn by becoming your friend.

Stay strong, never give up and keep going, keep walking your path in life, no matter how many times you fall. Get up, dust yourself off and keep walking!

A big >>hug<< for you and may you always be safe, happy and at ease in your life, everyday, always.