Recently I've been digging deeper and deeper into the motives of why I behave a certain way of behaving or what makes me so unhappy and find it very uncomfortable to even realise some of my weaknesses and patterns of action. I constantly feel shame and embarrassment and get so uncomfortable because I've been in therapy for so long and it almost feels like ive been pretending all along. I also worry that my T could see the motives and weaknesses all along. I have developed a need to overshare because i really want to get it off my chest. But when i try i feel so exposed.