So I couldn't get my meds and been off them for a bit, so naturally I destabilized. I'm going back to IOP today to see (yet again) if I can get refills. I hate this. I want to self harm so badly. Mind is racing a mile a minute. Filled with absolute RAGE. I was supposed to see my new doc tomorrow, but naturally with that particular practice the appointment was rescheduled to mid august. I want to call them back and just unleash all this rage on whoever, but that's not going to do anything. Been there done that last time this happened (a month ago).
If this is going to be my life, I want out.