There's nothing wrong with taking some time for yourself to figure out what you REALLY want to do, Ptak I DO believe it's important not to isolate yourself though. You may be feeling worse if you do that. Just try to keep yourself busy with something. Anything at all. It can even be something simple like jogging. Keep fighting! You'll get through this sooner or later. I know you will. In the meantime we're here to support you. You can count on us. I'm not sure if you have a support system IRL since that's VERY important in my opinion. Either way, we'lle be here for you THAT'S A PROMISE! I hope your appointment with your Pdoc will go well! Wish you the BEST of luck in BOTH your healing and your life! Sending many safe, warm hugs to you, Ptak, and to ALL the people you love and who love you!