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Originally Posted by Wander
PTSD has been spiraling out of control. I want to live, and I’m fighting so hard. Still, I’m backed into a corner and overwhelmed beyond belief. My mind is cracking. The last place I want to be is IP. It will only make me feel more trapped and traumatised. With my current presentation I fear my T will want me IP as I’m losing control. He is a good guy and will only want me safe but IP may make things worse. I see him Wednesday. I’m in trouble and he will see it. I will try to play things down but he knows me so well. Everything is falling apart. I don’t know what to do. It is possible I’m about to psychologically snap any minute and then anything could happen. I can’t find the way out which terrifies me. So much going on that I can’t tell. This is impossible.
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Ptsd is horrible and tragic, I so get it.
I know you are fighting with everything you have to stay out of IP. But what kind of life are leading staying out of IP?? not much of a good one ?
Going IP is never the goal of anyone of course. Sure you might feel trapped.... But it would be a place you could just” let go “ no matter what happens there you will have support and understanding.
Sometimes it just gets too hard to keep swimming upstream and you need time to rest so you can gear up to fight the battle another day.
Hope you can find some light in the tunnel.
