I'm sorry you've lost your job. I've never actually been fired. (I always managed to skin out just before the axe fell.) I do know something about having no one to blame but oneself though. It's been the story of my life. Here are links to 2 articles, from PC's archives, that (hopefully) may be of some help:

7 Steps to Surviving Job Loss

What to Do When You Get Unexpected Bad News

You wrote: "I know life goes on and that I should just get over this, but it's hard for me." During a partial hospital program I once attended they told us: "Don't should on yourself." It's good advice...