@Skeezyks: Thank you for the response and the information.


I've been a mess the last 24 hours. I've cried and had dry heaves. It makes me feel weak and like less of a man. I can't help but feel that I've let my family and myself down.

My wife has been understanding, but has said I could be in a worse situation (e.g. dying or homeless). That's true, but, frankly, doesn't make me feel any better.


I just can't seem to get over this, but hope it'll get better in time.