I simply never learned the social skills. During the pre- to early teens, I was having multiple and violent seizures. My meds were very high and I was socially stigmatized or alienated from the social circles. There are two years of my life I can't even remember anybody in the photos I see. I can discuss all kinds of issues and social topics or news articles but I cannot sit and just socially chit chat about my everyday life. Even amongst my own family and loved ones (relatives), I lack that social skill. So I am usually a wallflower at family social gatherings. These events cause me a social anxiety. I feel more comfortabel among strangers than my own family.