Thank you for sharing your story and welcome to PsychCentral.

I'm sorry you are suffering so much, and I'm not feeling well enough myself to write good supportive posts tonight. But I wanted to respond because sometimes replies can be a little slow to come. Give it a little time. Often people just aren't around or aren't feeling well enough to respond right away. It's the nature of online forums unfortunately. Please feel free to post or message anytime. We often talk about what helps and what doesn't for each of us. Often, we just share. I hope something here helps a little.

Please hang in there.