Thank you Skeez I will certainly use these resources. Its a life long journey of healing right. My self-esteem is much better than it has been and there is much further to go. That's okay about the sexuality piece. I am not really certain what answers I am looking in regard to it. I feel a strong attraction to women, and really only have the desire to be with them. I just have confusion and shame about past moments of experimentation. I am trying to accept them as exploratory. I mostly feel secure about it. I think I also just have some internalized homophobia. With some intrusive thoughts. Thanks again!