I feel my personality is different from what it used to be. Which isn't necessarily a bad thing, because I used to be a very angry person. But after years of medication and of course, aging, I just don't feel like there's that much to get worked up about. Sometimes I don't get mad when I should, though. I don't have the ability to distinguish what I'm supposed to be angry about from what I really don't care about. So I end up not caring about much of anything, and I'm too intellectually lazy to research things I find difficult to understand.

I hate being intellectually lazy. I used to look down on people who weren't paying attention to what's going on in the world, and now I'm like "Oh well, s*** happens." I may have stopped getting pissed off, which is easier on my gut, but sometimes I miss my fire and passion.