Oh my goodness. I had no idea that this had happened. I know you've been cryptically referring to a traumatic event over the past couple of years but I didn't know what it actually was. I can't even imagine what you must have gone through. I'm so sorry you've been suffering from PTSD, I have a son who's an Iraq War veteran and he has it, and he suffers the tortures of the damned. You are a brave, strong lady...many ((((HUGS)))) to you.