
SignOfHope
I am sorry you are feeling so down. You are not alone here. Some people find it a comfort to know they are not the only one to feel this way.
When I am alone, I feel lonely and when other people are around I feel a fraud because I am finding it hard to interact with them.
It sounds to me like you are trying hard. One day at a time, try not to pressure on yourself to measure up to what society expects just now.
Sending hugs