Hi Crazygrl882,

Real sorry you're having to deal with such hardship. Very sorry about your father too. Very saddening.

It does sound like you're not happy with your drinking so can you just not drink so much, like you did in the past? Give it a try, see how you go. Or maybe do social things with your friends that don't need to involve drinking. See it as a change for your health, a lifestyle change.