I agree with all the other wise and wonderful posters, @SignOfHope I'm sure many people can relate to your struggles. Please NEVER give up hope. I'm so sorry life is being so hard for you. You deserve MUCH, MUCH better than this. If it can help a little bit, we'll be here for oyu. Feel free to PM me anytime. My inbox is always open for you. I'm sure many other posters will gladly help you as well. Just hang in there. It gets easier. I know it's hard to believe but it does. Just try to do your best like you're already doing. You're a STRONG, WONDERFUL person! Please do ALWAYS remember that. My inbox will be open for you if you need advice and support. Even if you don't, just remember that we'll be here for you. I'm sure you'll like this Forum! Please make yourself at home and don't hesitate to ask for help to the Admins and Moderators or ANYONE else here. I'll be here for you as well. Wish you the BEST of luck in both your healing and your life. Please keep us updated. I hope you'll be able to see yourself like the beautiful person that you truly are. Please stay safe. Take GREAT care of yourself. You are IMPORTANT and you MATTER! PLEASE ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT! We'll ALL ALWAYS be here for you! THAT'S A PROMISE! Sending many safe, warm hugs to you, SignOfHope, and to ALL the people you Love and who TRULY Love you!