Hello BellaBabyLuna: Thank you for sharing your concern. I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to Psych Central. I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time. Hopefully coming here to PC can be of some comfort & support.

There is a sub-forum, here on PC, dedicated to the subject of complex PTSD. Here's a link:

https://psychcentralforums.com/complex-ptsd/

And then here are links to 3 articles, from Psych Central's archives, on the subject of cPTSD plus 1 on finding low cost therapy & 1 on what to do when you can't afford therapy:

The Unique Features of Complex PTSD

Recovery from Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder

What It's Like to Be a Complex Trauma Survivor of Narcissistic Abuse

Finding Low-Cost Psychotherapy

https://psychcentral.com/blog/what-t...fford-therapy/

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.