Hello all,

I was hoping to talk a bit about some of the feelings I've been going through for a bit.

In summary, I've been feeling very depressed for the last month now. This is not meant to sound alarmist, but I don't know how many more months of these I can do. This is my second major episode this year, I don't know particularly what has been making me so sensitive lately but it seems that small things just keep pushing me into a very dark place.

Really the thing that is tiring me out is the pain. I use to be apathetic to my depression, but these last few times have been very very painful. And the pain gets exhausting after a while.

I just want things to feel fine. I just want to not break down crying every night. I just don't want to feel like I'm better off dead.

I don't feel like its so much to ask, but it apparently is.