I'm so sorry you're dealing with so much stuff, seesaw Please hang in there. I agree with Crazy Hitch's wise advice. Just focus on one thing at the time. Your health must be the priority. Focus on your doctors' appointments right now. The rest can wait Hopefully you'll be able to solve those issues about your housekeeping and your dress. Right now just focus on providing the BEST possible self-care for yourself. I'm sure you'll get through this. We're here for you if you need support of ANY kind. Feel free to PM me anytime. You know I'm always here to listen to you or to anyone else. Don't hesitate to contact me if you need to. I'm sure others will gladly help as well. Hang in there! It DOES get better. I'm SURE of that. Just keep fighting and keep trying your best like you're already WONDERFULLY doing. Sending many safe, warm hugs to you, seesaw, and to ALL the people you Love and who truly Love you!