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eskielover · Jul 04, 2019, 09:23 AM

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Originally Posted by tryingtobeconstruct

Can anybody show evidence that "nobody is worthless"?

I know I'm worthless. No matter how nice I am to people, no matter how hard I try at work, no matter anything, I'm a failure at everything. My bosses are, at best, ambivalent about my job performance, and are often angry at me for things I tried very hard to do right. I have no friends. Nobody asks me to do friend things.

I tried going to church to make friends. Church is supposed to be a place where you feel welcome. I stuck with it for three years. I did church things, volunteered, tried talking with people. I finally gave up.. I got tired of leaving every service feeling lonely.

Some people *hate* me just because there's something unlikable about me. I'm often surprised by how much hatred there is. One coworker wrote a short story about killing me... when I reported it to my boss she ignored it.

I'm constantly baffled by the simplest things. I am literally the stupidest person I've ever known. I didn't understand basic bathroom hygiene until I was 12. I couldn't spell my own name until I was 13. Supposedly I was "gifted" but I was barely able to graduate high school.

I have never accomplished anything significant that I wanted. I cannot think of any way I've ever made the world a better place. Even worse, I'm a typical fatass American using up resources and leaving waste behind - I don't know how to live any other way.

Sometimes when I say these things people say "the common factor in all these situations is you". Well, yeah! That's my point... in all situations I've been in, the one common factor is that I'm not valued.

So... on what basis should I see any value in myself? Isn't it possible that some of us really are just worthless? I know people want to say that everyone as valuable. but those are just words. Can anybody show any reason I should think of myself any other way?

A little analysis here......

Have you ever been diagnosed with the cause of your SLOW learning process as a child? Sometimes those issues are really the basis for understanding later struggles in life & understanding helps us focus on finding what our strengths are while accepting the weaknesses. We need to understand ourselves so we know we aren't worthless. Our basis of worthless should not be based on what others think but what we KNOW about ourselves.

I will comment on church from a church goers perspective. Church is not about going there to find friends. It is about bonding through having a common belief. If that common belief is not there....church is not just about a socially gathering & volunteering in worthy causes. It is all about having & sharing a common belief then everything else comes together.

My dad, though a nice person had a personality that caused people not to want to be around him. It took him a long time in his life to actually find what he was good at doing & do a good job doing it....but like most of us we don't accomplish truly significant things in our lifes. We are more like a finger on our hand that works with the other fingers to get just everyday things done.

I think if you get an actual diagnosis & start understanding yourself better rather than in the context of everyone else, you will be better able to put yourself in situations where you will be able to excel within your OWN capabilities & possible limitations. Just like you don't judge a fishes worth by the fact it can't climb a tree. We can't judge our own worth until we really know who & what we are actually capable of