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Originally Posted by tryingtobeconstruct
Can anybody show evidence that "nobody is worthless"?
I know I'm worthless. No matter how nice I am to people, no matter how hard I try at work, no matter anything, I'm a failure at everything. My bosses are, at best, ambivalent about my job performance, and are often angry at me for things I tried very hard to do right. I have no friends. Nobody asks me to do friend things.
I tried going to church to make friends. Church is supposed to be a place where you feel welcome. I stuck with it for three years. I did church things, volunteered, tried talking with people. I finally gave up.. I got tired of leaving every service feeling lonely.
Some people *hate* me just because there's something unlikable about me. I'm often surprised by how much hatred there is. One coworker wrote a short story about killing me... when I reported it to my boss she ignored it.
I'm constantly baffled by the simplest things. I am literally the stupidest person I've ever known. I didn't understand basic bathroom hygiene until I was 12. I couldn't spell my own name until I was 13. Supposedly I was "gifted" but I was barely able to graduate high school.
I have never accomplished anything significant that I wanted. I cannot think of any way I've ever made the world a better place. Even worse, I'm a typical fatass American using up resources and leaving waste behind - I don't know how to live any other way.
Sometimes when I say these things people say "the common factor in all these situations is you". Well, yeah! That's my point... in all situations I've been in, the one common factor is that I'm not valued.
So... on what basis should I see any value in myself? Isn't it possible that some of us really are just worthless? I know people want to say that everyone as valuable. but those are just words. Can anybody show any reason I should think of myself any other way?
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I cant answer those questions in regards to you. what I can do is tell you that I have had times when I did not have any self worth (some locations call this self esteem).
when this happens I sit down and list all the good things about myself, not the good things that others may or may not see in me....
1.do I respect myself?
2.do I care physically about and for my self (hygiene, taking my meds, scheduling my appointments, attending my appointments....)
3. Do I stand up for whats right in my mental and physical care
4. do I have beliefs and standards and obey the laws of my household/ community / nation
5. are their any personal characteristics (hair style/ color, eyes, nose, mouth, the shape of my fingers or toes, this color looks good on me or that perfume/ cologne wears well on me.......) that I find to my liking.
sometimes I even google the words self worth and self esteem and match my body and mind to its definitions and examples...
have I stood up against injustice for myself or others, yes check.
have I achieved good things? yes yesterday I completed a goal that I have been working on for ages. it felt good to accomplish that. Check
in other words we cant tell you whether you have worth or not, worth and esteem are things that you give yourself, if you feel you are not worth something then no one is going to be able to convince you other wise.
suggestion maybe look at your posts and you may see some things in it about yourself that makes you feel good about yourself.... for example was your post compassionate, supportive if so this says you are a kind compassionate, supportive person. another example did any of your replies tell someone to break the laws, if not then that says you have a moral set of beliefs, and understanding of whats right and wrong. many times just going through my posts will show me that I do have a sense of self worth/ self esteem when Im feeling I dont.