Please NEVER feel ashamed about you feelings, golden_eve! I understand why you'd feel hurt. It is normal to be disappointed when we know that other people didn't invite us to a social event even if we don't particularly like those people. It makes us feel like there's something wrong with us. Of course that's not the case. I agree with all the other wise posters about asking about it next time if you want to join them. As for now, try not to think too much about it. Perhaps they didn't have bad intentions. You can always try to join their next reunion. Keep fighting! Sending many safe, warm hugs to you, golden_eve, and to ALL the people you Love and who truly Love you!