Hang in there, @zeeter! You won't suffer forever and you deserve to live a good life. Just hang in there Are you working with a therapist right now? Are you taking any meds? Usually these things can help a little bit. Just don't give up, ok? You will feel better at some point. I'm sure of that Please NEVER give up hope! YOU ARE IMPORTANT AND YOU MATTER! Please keep fighting as much as you possibly can. It is not easy but I'm sure you can make it. You are STRONG. Please don't you EVER forget that! I agree with what the Skeezyks has already wisely said better than I ever could. If things get worse, please call an hotline or go to an hospital. Your safety must be the number one priority! Sending many safe, warm hugs to you, zeeter, and to ALL the people you Love and who truly Love you!