Clearly you may be worthless in the eyes of certain others but you are not objectively worthless. All humans have the potential to do amazing things even if it is just flipping a switch. I never feel like this because I guess I just have very low standards for myself. When I do something as simple as hang a photo, I am "THRILLED" with myself. Most of the time I don't care what others think.

First thought, I see you are in eastern us. I happen to share your misfortune and I can tell you that people are unusually mean and frosty here. I lived in the midwest for a bit and it was just amazing. Everyone just wanted to be my friend. When I retire I will be looking for a nice place like that. You have to know this anti friendliness isn't a reflection on you. I am amazing and I have no friends and I am pretty sure that if I went to church no one would talk to me either. I think it is cultural in this area, even more closer to the east coast

For example, I have served on two boards in my condo. I always assumed I should make one friend in the 8 or 9 neighbors I have worked with. But no. None, and I mean, none, are interested in making friends. They just want to do the job and go do whatever they want to do. Even if they are single. Do not get.

One thing I see - especially in mass - is a weird friendship thing. Often I find people who have the most and the best friends to be horrible humans. They find other humans who want to talk badly about others and "feed" negativity and this brings them together. If you aren't that way, they sense it and don't want to be around you or hate you.

For myself I do it too. I am wary of everyone in this area so, basically, I am just never going to offer anything friendly. Been there, paid the price for even looking in someone's direction. Just best to keep my eyes down and stubbornly go about my business.