Living with an abuser is making me crazy. He says or does one thing and then later swears he did not say or do such and such.

He acts one way in public and like a totally different person at home.

One day something is ok to say or do, the next day the same thing is NOT ok

If I wear makeup or perfume or jewelry he asks who am I seeing

If I start to lose weight he says he will have to start going everywhere with me so no one will look at me.

If someone calls me he listens to the conversation. People stop calling

If things don't get done when and the way he wants things get thrown and broken (my things)

If he wants sex and I say no it can never be no.

I never spend money on me or the kids but the question is always what are you doing with MY money.

Sometimes I wonder why I even exist.