Hello IFeelButAlsoDont: Thank you for sharing your concern. I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to Psych Central.

Of course we here on PC can't diagnose you. Plus I'm not a mental health professional. So I can't offer anything with regard to what may be going on with you. Based on what you wrote, it does sound as though starting fresh with a new mental health professional might be a good idea. In the meantime, one thing you might do, here on PC, is to take some of the quizzes & tests that are on offer. Here's a link to the listing of quizzes & tests that are available:

Psychological Quizzes and Tests

You mentioned alexithymia. Here are links to 3 articles, from Psych Central's archives, on that subject:

Alexithymia: A Personality Trait | The Exhausted Woman

Alexithymia: The Cause and The Solution

Do You Have Alexithymia?

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.