What a sad, ugly life i lead. The pizza delivery man tonight made several sexual innuendos and i didn't even protest. I'm such a doormat. I've taken assertiveness training but it doesn't help. I'm so scared of everyone i don't dare use it. He was sloppily dressed, in grey sweatpants, work-boots and a shabby jacket far too warm for this hot day. He was not the sort of person i want to take food from. He knows where i live so i don't feel i can complain to management. Just one more reason i am glad i have withdrawn from life. I can't even make a transaction for a pizza go well. It's best that i be a recluse.