I felt down the whole day today plus feeling sleepy. I felt very depressed because I'm feeling like my friends and family life is in shambles. I even got thinking about going to a country in Europe that has legal suicide in about a few years. I'm supposed to be so happy with the way things have been going with selling my place and having good amount of money. But I'm not!

After lunch I took a two hour bike ride. Even that didn't cheer me up. Well at least tonight I went to the spa and it was nice and quiet. I thought that it was going to be active with people with BBQs and using the spa. Tonight it was the same as always, so that was good.