I am sorry you are struggling

I am sorry but this guy is a total loser, didn’t work in 2018 and doesn’t work in 2019 (maybe he has jobs in between don’t know), how does he pay child support if he doesn’t ever work? He lives off you and his parents, he is abusive, yelling at you and calling you names and threw stuff at you. And in all these years he wouldn’t even say he loves you.

Now this “catch” is also apparently a cheater. His own mother knows he is a terrible relationship material.

Nope you certainly can’t trust him and you shouldn’t because he is a cheater. Why would you trust him?

Check yourself for STDs. You don’t know if he met them or not. And if not, he likely will in the future. I recommend to completely refrain from sex at this point. It’s unsafe

Do you see a therapist? I’d look into your reasoning behind staying with this guy