Dear T,
You probably picked a good time to go out of town, as it's been pouring rain all day today. I'm trying to figure out if I'm doing OK because I'm accepting missing you and being OK with it. And/or if it's that I'm managing OK on my own, with my non-you support system. Or is that I'm compartmentalizing and trying to block you out? Because...it's not like I feel you with me right now. I'm not like, "I trust that you care, even if you're away, so I'm all good." So I'm not sure it's that I'm holding onto the attachment. Or am I just like, "OK I'm good I don't need you, pretending you don't exist and that I'm not attached to you because that makes it easier not to miss you"? Does it matter which thing it is? Is the important thing that I'm OK? I really don't know...I'd rather be holding your caring within me than...whatever this is. Stuff to talk about when you're back, I guess?

Love you,
LT