I'm so sorry, Deilla Do you think you may be a little addicted to that game? It's ok to play games to pass the time but we need not to let these things consume us. Are you seeing a therapist right now? If not, may that be an option for you or not? In any case, we're here for you. Don't listen to your inner critic. Challenge those negative thoughts and replace them with positive ones. Acknowledge ALL of your accomplishments. Write it down if you want. Hopefully that will make you feel a little bit better. Hang in there. I'm so sorry you're not getting enough support IRL. We're here for you though. You can count on us. Keep venting. We're here to listen. THAT'S A PROMISE! Sending many safe, warm hugs to you, Deilla, and to ALL the people you Love and who TRULY Love you!