It took me a long time to figure out how to get a job in my old field. I have to fake confidence. I achieved

I am scared and frightened all the time.

I know to get anywhere, people don't want to know i have problems.

I made a mistake sharing and it cost me friendships or former people I used to know.

I have very few people who accept me and know my struggles but
sometimes i smile and laugh out of nervousness but I don't like it when they don't take me seriously.

The way i see it, life is an acting game for me to get anywhere. Many people are not going to accept me.