I'm so sorry you're hurting SO MUCH, Sohappy I agree with ennie that perhaps you may want to disclose your MI to your Boss if you feel like it's affecting your work performance. You have EVERY RIGHT to get accomodations to put you on the same palying field of your colleauges. As for what you wrote, I can relate. It's so hard to fake and it gets tiring after a while My hope is that you'll meet some people with whom you'll feel comfortable with and with whom you will be able to freely share what's on your mind. While you wait for those people just know that we understand you here on PC. Please NEVER give up Keep fighting! You're a STRONG, WONDERFUL PERSON! YOU KNOW THAT'S TRUE! KEEP ROCKING! We'll ALWAYS care about you! THAT'S A PROMISE! KEEP ROCKING! Sending many safe, warm hugs to you, Sohappy, and to ALL the people you Love and who TRULY Love you!