well the time i had the panic attack... i had disassociated... and when i came back to earth (so to speak) ... i freaked out... i will be honest... i had several panic attacks... but was able to stay pretty grounded... and afterwards it was kind of cool that i had made it through... it kind of felt like i had taken some of my power back from the bad guys... it did triggers some things... but i think it's my time to process it... my med doc suggested i take xanax prior...but i had to drive so i was afraid too... lyn