Thank you, fern46, for your kind, insightful and encouraging words.

your support truly means a lot to me. I am very sorry I continue more and more upset: however, I keep discovering very mean things he is doing to me behind my back. I give him a "heads up" about everything! I even do an "expense report" and use very, very little money. He continues to do more and more to me each week. It's insane! I haven't done anything dishonorable toward him...ever.

He is trying to make life much more difficult for me each passing week.
I am not the one who has done terrible things (by most anyone's standards)!!!
He deserves "punishment," but he is punishing me... and I continue to inadvertently discover what he has been doing in a very underhanded way. It's all dishonorable, unethical and much more.

I get to where I am thinking he is done doing damage and am hoping we can meet and move on in a cooperative way, and he verbally assures me of this....all the while, he is doing even more damage.

I have wanted an amicable divorce proceeding, despite what he has done to cause a divorce. he says he wants this. However, there is nothing amicable about what he has been doing and continues to do. It's all bad enough without continuing to add insult to injury.

Thanks for sharing your insights, your concern, your encouragement. So deeply appreciated. Words fail me.