I'd stumbled upon yet another nasty surprise from H later in the day yesterday. Contacted him to verify what I had discovered. Yes, it's all true. He'd tried many approaches for not admitting to what he had done, yet I'd kept calling him out. He gave in and confessed to this discovery.

It's one punch after another in an ongoing way. I was punch-drunk long ago. it's just unbelievable! He continues to do things like this behind my back while putting on a very different front to me. It is all hostile. I had stumbled upon some info which told me i'd needed to look at accounts. I'd then called him because I could not get into any account (online).Last night, he'd told me he locked me out of all accounts because they were no longer any of my concern and/or pertinent to me. Huh? We are still married. We have not even started a legal separation.... which comes before any divorce. I have no income right now, so he's leaving me "twisting in the wind," which is a very hostile move on his part.

All the while, he is constantly assuring me that he wants an amicable divorce. I do not cost him much, never have! Right now, I even do expense reports to the penny! So I was not locked out for being financially irresponsible.

OMG! It never ends! So much lying, so much ongoing deceit! He does not learn from the outcome of prior lying and does not care about just how much damage he does.

It's all making me very ill. There is no break! Well, he had agreed to a short break last week, but kept on manipulating and doing even more behind my back.

I am exhausted.
Love to All~