I'm so sorry that you're hurting SO MUCH, @userme You don't have to have been abused to get depression. Sometimes it just happens. That doesn't make it any less valid. You are struggling and that's what matters and what it needs to be focused on. Not to mention that from what you wrote it seems like your life has not been easy AT ALL. I'm so sorry about that I agree with malika about seeing a therapist if you can. I'm also REALLY sorry that your parents are not listening to you. It seems like you've been neglected throughout the years. Unconditional Love is REALLY important in our development so it's not a surprise that you'd feel bad about that Please hang in there. You deserve to be loved and cared for just like everyone else does.Are you an adult? Is it possible for you to go away from your parents? Either way, you're in my thoughts and prayers. Please hang in there. Things CAN and WILL get better. We ALL do care about you. THAT'S A PROMISE! Sending many safe, warm hugs to you, userme, and to ALL the people you Love and who TRULY Love you!