I ran into two old college friends last night at a concert. One is an ex boyfriend. One is a former good friend with whom I lived in college, then years later, had a bad falling out.

It was awkward as hell seeing them. The ex seemed very awkward towards me and it was difficult to carry a conversation. We were never awkward as ex's and were always friendly after we broke up. He is now married with kids and my husband was there with me.

My former friend was also very awkward towards me, but we had made peace after our falling out. I had great difficulty talking to her as well.

My other friend, Angela, was there and I worried that she had told them about my hospitalization five years ago and my mental breakdown. I fear that she did tell them and that that's why they were very strange towards me.

I don't know if this is the case, but I know Angela told most our friends about my breakdown, even though I had said keep it quiet.

Now I have the worst feeling. Brought right back to adolescence where I felt awkward in my own skin.

And I babbled to both of them, making it even worse feeling.

I hate this. I wish we hadn't run into them. I am an adult for crying out loud.

I guess what feels awful is thinking that they may know about my hospitalization/mental breakdown, and felt awkward around me as a result.

It was the MOST socially uncomfortable situation I've been in, in a long time. UGH.