Yes, it may very well be related to an inferiority complex if you have one. It is probably also related to those bullies making you feel this way. Can I ask you if you're interested in seeing a therapist? Perhaps that may help you to figure it out better! That's just my opinion of course. Still I hope you'll figure it out one way or another. Keep posting here if it helps reflecting. Sending many safe, warm hugs to you, randomer123