I know this is a long post but I hope people read it because I've seen a lot of lonely people trying to find just one person in the entire world they resonate with, without any luck.

BPD is a title. You can't know a person by a disorder title. People are complex. IMO you don't have a disorder unless it's detrimental. Also I believe some people such as myself only have disorders not because there's something wrong with us but because we're so different that people have treated us badly.

So anyhow for my entire adult life I've struggled to find other people I can relate to. No luck so far, but I've seen a lot of vlogs and posts from people diagnosed with BPD say things that seem like me. Do the following traits seem typical or at least somewhat common for BPDs?

* Their minds are racing a million miles per hour.
* The have strong yearning desires to do big things such as save the world.
* Have strong desires to be overachievers.
* Have a lot of projects or things going on in their life

Obviously some people are more intense than others. Someone might barely be diagnosed with BPD and may not have any of the above traits while someone like myself is always at full speed, which brings up another question. If there are plenty of people with such traits, then wouldn't they eventually at least become self-taught in science because science is one of the most powerful tools to achieve things. Sure, they may be extremely spiritual, just as I've always been, but it seems to me they would also learn science.

What am I missing???? Honestly I'm getting tired of feeling 100% alone as if I'm the only person in the world like me! Don't get me wrong. Yes I found plenty of people who are spiritual and a scientist, but never anyone who's intense who has such a yearning to help the whole world who's spiritual, a physicist, an electrical & software engineer. Please, where are the overachievers? Or am I just alone stuck in some dream, a nightmare, or perhaps in a computer jail simulation / virtual reality. Idk, I've been forced to think of every possible explanation.