Hello Alfredisacat: Thank you for sharing this devastating experience. Hopefully coming here to PC can be of some comfort & support. I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to Psych Central. Two forums here on PC, that may be of particular interest to you would be the survivors of abuse forum & the women-focused support forum. Here are links to these forums:

https://psychcentralforums.com/survivors-of-abuse/

https://psychcentralforums.com/women-focused-support/

And then here are links to some articles, from Psych Central's archives, that (hopefully) may be of some help:

Sexual Assault: What Is It? How to Empower Recovery for Survivors

Building Empowerment After Sexual Assault

Dealing with Sexual Trauma: 3 Phases | Relationship Corner

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/imper...auma-survivor/

https://psychcentral.com/lib/coping-with-flashbacks/

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.