So last week I told my wife I feel mature enough to raise a child. As a result my wife went into overdrive with baby fever.

I even told my wife without thinking that we should try for a child and one night we did. Now this was a stupid mistake and I regretted it the moment after the deed was done. Luckily though three days later my wife got her period which means she is not pregnant. While this was a big relief too me, she was upset. Fast forward a few days. I decided to tell my wife that in fact I do not want to try for a child at this very moment. Simply because we could not financially support a child.

I had a momentary lapse in judgement and decided to do something drastic completely based on emotion. Which I’m not proud of, and I am very ashamed.

Now things are very awkward between me and my wife. Having a child was something she has wanted for years and I gave her hope. Then quickly took it away from her. Honestly I’m not sure if our relationship will survive this since we’ve only been married for a few short months. I feel like a total d-bag and very guilty for what I’ve done. But now she has decided that she will not forgive me until I give her a child.

So now I’m lost. I’m going to give her plenty of space and time until she feels like approaching me. But then she sends me mixed signals like hugging me, holding my hand, cuddling with me etc... then turns around and says she wants to hit me and curses at me. I’m very confused and I realize that I hurt her badly. I know time will tell but I’m very worried.