While journaling I discovered why I took this gaming setback so hard and basically unraveled emotionally. About three years ago, I had a job interview of my dreams. It was with Blizzard Entertainment. I hadn't worked in a while because of disability. But I had been keeping up with the technology a bit. Well I struggled during the interview. It was apparent that I had been out of the work force for a while and when faced with a coding test, I couldn't complete the assignment in time. I failed to get the job. But the person who interviewed me gave me a lot of pointers and suggested I take classes. He also encouraged me to try again after a few months. I didn't. I gave up. So now when I fail, I just give up. I end up feeling hopeless and helpless. It's like I'm doomed.

I am aware of it now. So I believe next time I will have a different mind-set. I will view it as an attempt at something and just simply try until I succeed. Mainly I will try not to take it so personally.